The other day I stood in my kitchen staring at a postcard I’d received from one of the sweetest girls I’ll ever have a chance to know. I was overcome with gratitude. Knowing that there are people out there who are busy fighting their own battles and yet, they’ve got time to say that they’re in your corner, they’re pulling for you, thinking of you – it is humbling.
It can be hard not to feel like an undeserving fraud when you realize people care about you. Admittedly, I don’t know how to be a good friend.
There is something in my make up that compels me to hold just about everyone at a distance. Even when I feel great affection or love for them. It wasn’t always this way. It’s something that I’ve learned to do.
Unfortunately, I’m sure that I hurt peoples feelings with my standoffishness. But, I just don’t know how else to be anymore. When you take one step closer I take one step back.
Though I’m an awkward creep – nevertheless, people persist with showing me they care. There are so many twinkling stars in my orbit. Though I may be silent, I see your light.