Rainy Friday Morning Mental Wanderings
It’s raining cats and dogs here on Long Island. I’m sitting in my office moving ones and zeros around on the screen and thinking about the future. And the past. And using that as another excuse to see if I can keep at adopting my iPhone as a blogging tool.
With a ride coming up soon, I really should get myself busy with gazing at the stars on my map in order to make some of those someday wishes come true. Someday can show up a bit sooner than expected with a little legwork. But, no surprise I’m slacking on that front.
Maybe getting back into the natural rhythm of life is a slow and steady process. Expecting myself to hit the ground running and full of excitement seems to be unrealistic. I’m in full on sloth-mode. Speaking of – did you know sloths only poop like once every two weeks, or something like that. I think. That could be a random true fact… or I might be crazy. Or both.
I keep wondering if throwing myself out into the world on my motorcycle will have some magic sway over my mind. I’m scared of being alone with my thoughts for hours at a time. Which, when you think about, is ridiculous since you never escape them anywhere. I’m hoping that maybe being with the familiar thrum of the engine, the wind, the sights will help center me and remind me of why life is beautiful.
Thanks for listening, youz guyz. I know I’m pretty boring these days and droning on like a broken record about being sad and whacked out. But, I appreciate everyone who has reached out to help prop me up. It’s pretty humbling to know that there is a Love Army at your back.
Where did you get the miniature Leg Lamp?
Someone gave it to me for Christmas a few years ago 🙂
Fuzzy, venture out – against your desire to stay in. Your motorcycle will heal you. Put earbuds in and listen to music. It will help with those “alone thoughts”. It doesn’t have to be a long ride – just a step. I’m not going to tell you that life is beautiful, though most would disagree – but you need to live and carry on. One day at a time.
I know you’re right, Elisa. One step at a time on the journey back to “normal”
First of all you’re far from boring and despite trying your best to look miserable I thought you looked fantastic in your photo yesterday.
In a very real sense our individual thoughts and our lives are pretty insignificant. We’re here for a while and then we’re gone, and it was as if we were never here. Our thoughts are not reality-they are thoughts about reality. You don’t have to believe everything you think.
I wish you all the best whatever you do and maybe just bringing a camera and posting when you get home (if you go) would be easier. As my shrink used to say to me for 10 years every time he handed me another script for Xanax, take good care.
Oh you like domo-kun, I am surprised to see him so far from home.
I love him! 🙂
We’re all metaphorically riding right behind you. The good part about that is that you can feel us when you need to … and forget we’re there when you don’t 🙂
Bruiser the Cruiser is sick right now or I would hit the road too. I need it 🙂
That stinks about Bruiser. having him looked at soon?
I really like that idea of y’all riding with me when i need you 🙂
Ripples from your rainy day post caused me to investigate sloth poop…what can I say? Keep on stimulating our minds with questions and sharing . It’s fun! Can’t wait for the next brain tickle from you and the next ride pics. Camera or iPhone, we stand ready to receive
😀 I’m glad i wasn’t alone in contemplating sloth poo. Was i close on the time or did i mis-remember?
My source (for what it’s worth) says once per week…and it’s very dangerous for the sloths who descend from the trees to do it. Other sloths just poop from the treetops which is unpleasant for anyone below them {:-0 Sorry, felt the urge to share…
I find your posts far from boring. I relate to what you write more than you know. Most social media is filled with a bunch of bullshit and people putting on an act so thank you for being Real 🙂
That’s the funniest thing about social media. I can’t relate to most people “epic” anything. But I can relate to their raw, honest humanity served up with pretense. I guess more people are looking for mindless entertainment than human connection and understanding.
You are never boring…and GO, ride, it will help! 🙂